Life at this end………

Life changes …..

In the most unexpected moment, in the most unexpected way.

All desires and dreams seem to be at odds with one another. Certain circumstances repeat themselves without any reason. The space and freedom remind me about my path, shedding my old self, just like a transition.

“So how does life treat you? “

This question started aching and echoing my mind more and more, than ever before. And it has become an object of my meditation. Most often, deep in my heart I think of my friend who has thrown this question to me…..who is gifted with immeasurable insights along with his intelligence,who remains remarkably unruffled in utter situations and with whom I can be more myself……

Since life cannot be made to conform to a system, when it can’t be forced to a frame work, everything goes like brilliant utopian ideas.

These days I follow the path of divine madness, where no balance is kept, still balanced with the very being and nature….with worldly enjoyment and divine transcendence – the dual glories of a human life, the singular balance of a good and beautiful that leads to both pleasure and devotion and to a stress free space.

What is the benefit of living harmoniously amid extremes?

Is this the real me in myself, with a dual personality – half embodies my exuberant, cheerfulness, making fun of everything and the way I take everything lightly……and the inner corners are being not known to any one?

Every idea reaches to a question and I see flames everywhere. Though I ever hesitate to jump into conclusions, it has become more apparent that ideas are convenient escapes. When I try to recollect myself more with my being to reach in a state of ‘stillness ’, memories cuddle each other and I often fell into silence….the cool wind wrapped me from the slippery thoughts.

Words started filling my ears, its Mr. Sateesh Lal with his nostalgic voice explaining to his students about the nature of language. Suddenly did I realize that I was sitting in the lawn. From the second floor Tenzin and Phenday were looking down smiling.

“Hey,” The voice came. It was Mr.Bijoy. “How come you all alone here?” He came near and winked at me . “Can I comment something, if you do not mind…?” He asked….A polished polite mischievous smile ran across his face.

“Yes please, I smiled.

“Right now you look like a girl, who’s being betrayed by her lover….”

“Ha ha “, hardly could I control my laugh…. “.A slight change Bijoy , not betrayed but temporally disconnected…” I continued and we laughed then walked to the staff room.

“You stop everybody by a look and ignore all comments with a laugh; it’s not fair.

“Is that so?” Huh? I said…

All were in their high pitch when we entered into the staff room. “Oui, come here, let’s have a chat they shouted….

“Hey, Jessy how are you?” Mr Daniel raised his regards from the corner. “Any ways “These days Jessy doesn’t bunk the staff meetings, hope you haven’t fallen in love with someone here huh…..”

All laughed together….Where am I now….on top of the world, or in the depth of despair? A queer feeling shook me and I was released by a deep long sigh……

Yeah, life still treats me better my dear friend…..sometimes with tears, sometimes with rainbows….

And I never ought to fail.